I know. Been a while…
To say things are a little weird right now is a gross understatement. Getting away from my own direct issues, today a number of my friends complained of being unable to sleep last night. Baseball, one of my refuges, was rife with basebrawls and beanings last night. Politics just annoy me now, with all the immaturity and nastiness.
It sounds a little “tin foil hat” to say it’s something in the air, but what is it? My view of astrology is one of amused skepticism (am I stubborn because I’m a Taurus, or because I was raised to believe Tauruses are stubborn?) so whatever configuration the constellations are in, I’m slow to believe that’s it. Are we just socially devolving, stressing ourselves to death (or at least ill health)?
My own situation is devolving, certainly. My husband’s employment situation is worse – working six days a week for just over minimum wage and no benefits, being docked for nearly every mistake anyone makes in a highly disorganized environment where the boss refuses to bring his organizational methods into modern standards. He’s stressed, exhausted, frustrated. My own medical issues only increase – my most recent fall in February resulted in an annular tear and L5/S1 disk herniation. Standard treatment is surgery. County health care’s response: “Don’t fall again. Hopefully it will heal on its own.” Add that to my T11 compression fracture and nerve impingement from the resulting osteophytes (off-and-on leg numbness, positional incontinence, pain, limited range of motion…), and unresolved cervical disk herniations from my 2010 car accident (hand numbness on awaking and positional).
So I, too, have been on edge.
Still, I cling to reason. I need to get on disability. Husband needs a new job with a sane employer. In the meantime, we need to stay physically and mentally healthy. (That said, while my weight loss is rewarding on many levels, new clothes cost money and pants two sizes too large tend to start falling off…) I refuse to resort to a crap diet and unhealthy obsessions. Our living situation has itself grown unhealthy, and we need to move out as soon as we are able.
So everyone take a breath, go look at (or create) some art, eat something yummy, go do something new. Travel, if you can afford it. Take care of yourself. Keep your well full, so that you don’t run dry while giving water to others (thank you for that advice, dUg, I haven’t forgotten). And if you have any job openings, let us know…